just the facts, ma’am

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Having a public blog about personal growth creates a peculiar dilemma.

I want to look honestly at what has got me into this mess (pun intended), so I can figure out how to get out of it. Yet I worry — in a paranoid “Am I hurting my future prospects?” sort of way — about being too honest.

During the conscious hours of my day today (I’ve been sick in bed most of it), I’ve mildly obsessed about having said yesterday that I don’t manage time well. Will my boss read this? Will he suddenly realize that I don’t manage time well by reading it on my blog? Should I censor what I say about myself, making it all cheerful and positive and self-promoting in the hopes of impressing all future employers?

As it happens, I am not the most private of people in real life, so it is funny that I am worrying about this now. I am the kind of person who does all of her thinking and problem solving out loud, so — at any given time — any nearby person who is paying the slightest bit of attention probably knows what is going on with me, anyway. Good things, bad things, funny things, stupid things, songs I have stuck in my head… it’s pretty much all out there. (Quinland was just saying to me last night, “Mom! Nobody wants to hear about that!” But she’s 12, so she’s probably going to feel that way about my conversation topics, regardless.)

I haven’t actually decided what I think here, but I’ll keep you posted.  In the meantime, I’m off to take over-the-counter drugs and try to get some sleep. I really don’t like being sick, and the only thing worse than being sick is when you have a backlog of tasks that need to be done that you can’t do because you are sick!

  • {Body Fat} released: Well, I hope so. I didn’t get rid of anything else today, and I think I acquired more stress…

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