I am overwhelmed by my home.
For some reason (ha!), I had completely blocked out the fact that, when I left for Europe, I left my home a complete disaster. Imagine my surprise when I walked through the door to find… everything exactly as I had left it. Piles of things we had been debating bringing with us (since we packed at the last minute). Piles of things we had planned to deliver or donate or deal with before time ran out. Piles of things.
Yeah. A complete and total disaster. Why did fairies not appear in my absence and take care of all my clutter? I will never know.
In the meantime, of course, our suitcases have exploded six months’ worth of stuff here, there, and everywhere. Putting that away is a challenge in and of itself.
I’ve been trying to ward off the imminent panic attack by repeating this mantra: “Patient and systematic. Patient and systematic. Patient and systematic…”
I have to be patient. The stuff is not going to vanish overnight, unless I take David’s suggestion and pile it in the yard and burn it. No, every little thing has to be dealt with. It is going to take some time. But if I don’t do it – if I avoid it, as I would like to do, by reading about my new MS diet – it will undermine the peace I brought home with me. So I am taking care of things, a little at a time.
I also have to be systematic. It’s hard to know what to do first when every single surface is screaming for attention, and the pressure can make me want to throw up my hands and give up. So I have decided to start at the front of the house and work my way through, room by room, systematically. Find the next out-of-place thing and deal with it. Put it away, give it away, throw it away. Rinse. Repeat.
I have a week before I have to go back to work. Will I get done in a week? No. I have to admit that I won’t, as much as I wish it could happen. But I will make progress, every single day.
Patiently and systematically.
I’m grateful to have my family here. I know I am not as much fun as I could be (since I have the whole overwhelmed-by-my-home thing going on and all my time is taken up with being patient and systematic) but I am so glad to see them.