Welcome to NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month)! I’m going to be posting every weekday in November to kickstart my way back into regular blogging. Hooray!
Last year, one of Q’s friends told me that Walk The Moon’s I Can Lift a Car was her life anthem. Ever since then, I have wondered what my life anthem would be. For that matter, what would be the criteria for choosing it? A song by one of my favorite bands? A song that has remained a favorite for years and years? A song that has a deep personal meaning? All of the above?
Well, my dad and I have been spending a lot of time the last few months talking about Achilles heels, weaknesses in ourselves that can lead to our downfall. I’ve been tossing around ideas for what my “fatal flaw” might be. Laziness / sloth / inertia? Perfectionism? Self-doubt? All of the above?
I think these two philosophical debates coalesce for me in this song. I’ve been drawn to it since I first heard it in college. I would play the cassette over and over in my car, belting out this beautiful song any time I drove alone. (I had to play it in the car because no one I knew in college – or perhaps since – could stand listening to Amy Grant, except me). It struck a chord in me then, and it still does, all these years later. Is it my life anthem? It’s definitely in the running…
When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
Have all been nicely said
But I’m still hurting, wondering if I’ll ever be the one I think I am I think I am
Then you gently re-remind me
That You made me from the first
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst
And I realize the good in me
Is only there because of who You are
Who You are…
And all I ever have to be is what You’ve made me
Any more or less would be a step out of Your plan
As you daily recreate me help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be is what You’ve made in me