fun with yoga

Disclaimer: Totally not me. But this is what I see when I look around in class.
Disclaimer: Totally not me. But this is what I see when I look around in class. Inspiring, yes; demoralizing… perhaps.

Over the past couple of months, I have rededicated myself to Bikram Yoga – the one with the 105-degree room and all the sweat – because it makes me feel wonderful.

Ultimately, that is. All along the way, however, it’s a different story. Its challenging and difficult and HOT.

The first challenge is mental. I don’t have to convince myself that I want to go; in fact, usually I spend my entire week saying, “I really need to go to yoga. I can’t wait to go to yoga. You know what I need? Yoga.” What I have to psych myself up for is the time commitment. A Bikram Yoga class is 90 minutes long from start to finish, not including the getting-into-your-skimpy clothing-and-staking-a-claim-to-your-space time nor the additional getting-all-that-sweat-off-and-packing-up time. That puts you at about two hours between the time you arrive at the studio and when you leave. To top it off, the two closest studios to me recently closed, so I get to drive 20-30 minutes each way to get to the one out in Beaverton. All of you with your Math Hats on can see that this is an easy three hours out of my day. I’m finding it easier to commit to that on Mondays and Fridays (now that I am off work on those days), but any more than that, no matter how good for my health, is not going to happen.

The second challenge is psychological. That skimpy clothing I mentioned is necessary because of the heat, but not something I usually put on… and having to stare at myself in the mirror dressed this way, while surrounded by the young and fit, is a bit demoralizing. Similarly humbling is my inability to do all the poses without wobbling, wavering, falling over, and otherwise drawing attention to myself. I am fully aware that I am – in the infamous words of my child – “diseased,” and that yoga is all about your own practice, your own goals, your own improvement, but I am apparently shallow enough to wish I looked a little better while I actually do it. And then there is the heat. Some days, like today, it is all I can do to just stay in the room for the entire time without feeling like I am going to be sick whenever I try to do a pose.

But right now, a couple of hours later, all of that nonsense has faded into the background. I am less stiff and sore than I have been all week. I’m glad that I have exercised, proud of myself for having put the three hours in, and relaxed and sleepy enough to go to bed early.

Good night!

6 thoughts on “fun with yoga

  1. Lori oh Lori. The women in your class are not looking at you judgingly they are looking at you proudly. They are proud you are doing something that helps you and that you are trying. I am proud that you have found something that helps you feel better. When they first started were they not all wobbly too. Lori you are beautiful.

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    1. Oh, sweetie, thank you!!! That is so nice. I am going to have to take you up on this, and go in there feeling all proud of myself. 🙂

      Can’t wait to see you in a week!

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  2. Dear Lori,
    Thank you so much for clicking “follow” on my blog, I’m gladly returning the favor. This yoga blog post immediately caught my attention for I’ve been enjoying (and battling) yoga for quite a few years now. When I got to Texas my husband introduced me to one of his friends who promptly took me to a yoga class with her. Unfortunately, I didn’t realize in time that she was in the proficiency (or whatever they call that) class, doing Hatha yoga, the one where you never take a break and do crazy stuff like doing a lotus seat while actually standing on your hands… and all of that for 90 minutes. I felt so out of my depth, all I could do was giggle – which earned me some stern glances from the teacher.
    I always tell myself it doesn’t matter what you look like or how good you are – as soon as you leave the house you’re doing more than any couch potato 😉
    Looking forward to reading more from you!

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    1. Thank you so much! What a treat to have you follow the blog. Your yoga experience sounds even more intimidating than mine. I’m glad I haven’t done a class where people are doing any kind of handstand – I would have run from the room and never looked back!

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