in my dreams, I can run

Best Foot Forward

I dream of being a runner.

Not just in a figurative sense, mind you. I mean that I regularly dream of running.

It’s not just that I can run in my dreams, either – it’s how I run. Quickly. Effortlessly. As though I each one of my paces sends me a tremendous distance, floating a tiny bit above the air. (My real running is nothing like this, of course. It is lumbering and breathless and, frankly, demoralizing.)

I continue to daydream of running, although my progress toward this goal is hampered by the following conundrum:

  •  I am afraid of running. Afraid that I will lose my balance and fall, that I won’t be able to go more than about 30 yards, that my left foot will scream every time it hits the ground.
  • This is not pure conjecture; in the past couple of years, I have experienced all of these things when I have tried to run.
  •  Therefore, I rarely attempt to run.
  •  And, thus, I shall never become a proficient runner.

It’s silly, I suppose, to believe that it is a hopeless case. I mean, I lose my balance while standing still, I’ve fallen over while taking a simple walk, and my foot bugs the heck out of me on a regular basis. . . and yet I still get out there and walk around every single day. Why not let the same things happen while trying to go a little faster?

I’m cognitively aware that even tiny amounts of effort will lead to incremental success in building my skill, yet I still choose not to act. Perhaps it’s silly that I cling to this dream so tenaciously while putting so little effort into achieving it.

I’m sure that most of us have dreams we are not brave enough to strive for, things that we achieve only in our deepest sleep. Running is mine; what’s yours?

Best Foot Forward” by Maureen Barlin / BY CC

7 thoughts on “in my dreams, I can run

  1. I am thinking that running is not necessarily a dream, but a “wouldn’t that be nice”… I think walking regularly is your good first step (see what I did there? 🙂 ) and if it becomes running, then awesome, and if it doesn’t, then that doesn’t make you “less than” in any way.

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  2. I really like what “theglads” said and totally agree. Walking is just as awesome, especially when you can actually enjoy it. There is times when it’s just too hot to run for a long stretch here in Texas but I still get out there, do as much as I feel is good for me and then simply walk. And I thoroughly enjoy it. I think that’s worth so much more and it will ensure that I’ll go out there and do it again!
    As to my dreams: There are so many, it’s not even funny… Writing a book, becoming a yoga teacher, becoming a zentangle teacher, doing a translator’s degree, running a marathon… Ah well, I might start on my bucket list eventually 😉

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    1. Ooh, what is zentangle? That sounds very interesting!

      Your approach to running is perfect – do just as much as you can, and then walk. I need to make the effort to just get out there, whether I run or walk; I think that forming a habit of movement of any kind would be good for me!

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  3. oh, I’m so glad you left a comment on my blog so I could find yours! I look forward to following along. I’ve always wanted to be a runner and just couldn’t for a zillion reasons, but recently I saw a young guy running while doing jazz hands and a lot of improv dancing moves, and he made me SO SO happy, I was happy the rest of the day. So *I* decided to run like that. I made a playlist of songs that drive me out of my tiny mind with joy, and I sucked it up and decided not to care (too much) if people looked at me, remembering that I might make them happy too, and ran out my door into my quiet suburban neighborhood. Turns out I can do jazz running, which as far as I can tell is not an Olympic sport, but shouldn’t it be? 😉

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    1. I’m with you – jazz running should definitely be a sport!

      Your comment reminded me of the episode of Friends where Rachel doesn’t want to run with Phoebe because she runs “weird,” until Phoebe explains that running like a child makes her happy. We should all run in a way that makes us happy. 🙂

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